lost focus

Time for me to focus, and really get my mind and act together to shed some unwanted and extra despised weight. I hate pictures of me, and there were a few taken on my trip that disgusted me. I didn't gain any weight while gone, thankfully, but I didn't loose any. Really, it was hard to shed weight the way we ate out and was catered to at lunchtime. So it's time. I weight myself yesterday, and just in a few days put on a few pounds. We didn't care what we ate over the weekend and it shows (literally) now. My birthday is Monday and as I'm getting older, it's harder to focus on weight loss, and I seem to loose the drive really quickly these days.

The truth hurts. It's hard when everyone around you is fit, toned, and the right size (weight), when I used to be that way. I was in great shape while serving in the Service. I was as fit as anyone I hung out with, or went through my Navy career with. I could hang with the guys on our PT. I was (many years) the girl that ran the most at her command, the girl that could party all hrs of the night then get up for a decent mileage run, the girl that was toned with a nice stomach, the girl that didn't see how fit I was - until now. Now, I'm on the opposite end of the scale and it hurts me.

Wed: 30 min - Elliptical
I went to the gym yesterday and did a boring workout as Marcy would say. :-) I don't have a specific plan right now, but will probably do what David suggests, which is to get a beginner's triathlon program and just work off of that plan, just to have one. I am still planning on doing the Greenville half-mary, but not 100% sure yet. My enjoyment of running has slid some, because of my leg and I don't want to do a Half if my heart isn't into it. That's hard to admit, but I want to be honest with you all. I've ran for years, all the way back to enlistment. I think I just want to do a variety of cardio workouts, not just running. So, I'll figure out my plan, post it and see what you all think.

Today (lunch) - Pilates

Niki - if you read this - I feel your pain girl, and feel that I'm right there with you. I'm in a pity party too, and I hope we both come out of it soon! ((here's to raised glasses))

Enough of the pity party junk! This morning as I was getting all my stuff together to take to work (briefcase, purse, and my gym bag), I said something like gonna put my junk in the trunk, so we started singing the black eyed peas song, then after getting to work, David sent me this video of Alanis, which btw, I've always liked - such a tough chic. I think it's funny. I've never seen it or even heard it until now.



BEP's video - Boy is Fergie toned!

11 comments:

Wes said...

Ohhh.yeaaa... I luv Alanis. She can make the Birthday Song sound like a ballad..

Have fun planning :-)

Marcy said...

Ahhhh Fergie, Fergie, Fergie. She's like a classic one liner from Snoop "Body of a goddess face from Hell" Her bod looks killer, she just needs a face transplant :-X Dang I'm a mean one today.

Awwhhh Mendy don't sweat the weight stuff. I KNOW it's hard. But if it makes you feel any better, today when I put on my jeans the front button popped off. It wasn't a freak thing either. I've been (what Lisa calls) "holding the flood gates back" with running and since I've stopped. . . yeahhhhhhh the cross training doesn't burn as much as I'm putting into my mouth :-X

Jess said...

That Alanis parody is funny -- I saw it last spring when it emerged on the web.

And Fergie? Ugh. I agree with Marcy -- something about her face is f'd up! Is it her eyebrows? I can never quite pinpoint it. Plus, I think she's really annoying, so while she may have great abs, I certainly don't envy her. I wouldn't trade abs for IQ.

Anyway, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. I think the pictures I've seen of you look great! Lose weight if it will make you feel healthier or stronger, but don't lose it to fit into a pre-conceived notion of how you "should" look.

Yes, I know, my after school special airs tomorrow.

J~mom said...

That Alanis video still cracks me up!

Try not to be hard on yourself about your weight, I think you look great! I know it's hard though when you have been one spot and are working back to it. Try to look to take it one day at a time and it will get easier. (((HUGS)))

Do you want to do another triathlon? Would that be more motivating then a half?

Mendy said...

Hey y'all - I'm s-l-o-w at seeing videos on you tube or videos - period. Definitely behind the curve ball!

I agree with you all about Fergie. She's got a hard body, but that's about it.

Lisa, I'd probably be interested in doing another, but there aren't many around here left, and I don't want to waste the money traveling to another city, it's gotten expensive over this season with just David doing them. I'm thinking about it.

Neese said...

poor Fergie is getting a bad rap about her face! lol It's her confessed meth using that doesn't sit well with me... anyway....

Mendy hang in there girl... i'm even considering bailing on the half.... after being off a week, and having already done one.... egh.... that's how i feel now, tomorrow is another day.....

Chad in the Arizona Desert said...

A plan is definitely a good idea. For me, the most important motivator has always been having one or more goal races that I'm registered for. It has always forced me to focus on training specifically for it knowing that it will hurt a whole lot more if I don't put the training in. I've let my body just get itself in shape as a product of the training. I'm down nearly 20 pounds from where I was a year ago, so I guess it works.

teacherwoman said...

I need to lose the weight as well. As I get older, I find it harder to stay fit. Damn this sucks!

David said...

I guess this means pizza only once per week. *sob* Actually, I'll be looking forward to supercharging our diet with lots of veg and chicken as we get rolling again in our training plans. The half marathon is on our anniversary, so we gotta do it. I mean, what else are we going to do? (pretending to look innocent, batting eyelashes, with develish grin)

RunningCrazyAfter3 said...

LOL at David! I think Fergie's face is that f'd up FROM the meth use. I feel your pain with the weight. I have been going through the same situation lately. But I have decided to just clean up my eating habits, cut back on the *spirits* and exercise religiously. It has to help, right? :P

Gotta Run said...

David needs to keep you away from the pizza and beers. Remember that men process and can eat far different from what we can!! So make him be good too!

You know exactly what to do to reach the goals that you desire. You have all of the tools. Goals and plans keep me focused and I am sure will do the same for you. So plan girly... I will cheer you all the way!